“After getting pregnant very easily, but having back to back miscarriages I eventually became scared… TERRIFIED of getting pregnant again.
We decided to take a break after my 3rd loss.
I wanted to focus on making lifestyle changes that could help boost my egg quality.
My goal was to give myself 4 months to let the new supplements take affect & to give my heart time to heal.
During our break, I legitimately did NOT want to get pregnant.
I didn’t think my body was ready.
So we waited 4 months & I did EVERYTHING I could to prepare my body for pregnancy and now… it’s not happening.
I can’t help but feel confused & worried.
Getting pregnant for us has been the 1 easy part.
(Which I’ve been so grateful for because I have so many other challenges against me to STAY pregnant).
It’s only been 2 months, but it’s hard to have the mentality that it’s ONLY our 2nd cycle because the reality is that we’ve been on this roller-coaster for a while.
Today is my BETA & maybe I’ll be pleasantly surprised, but I’ve had a lot of bleeding the last 24 hrs so it’s really hard to be optimistic today. 😔
My heart is telling me to hang on to hope, but my mind is scared.
It’s hard to write this, but
my biggest fear is not being able to get pregnant again.
Why does it have to be so hard?!?
Has this happened to you or anyone you know?”