“Let’s talk shit! 😂 see what I did there?
Seriously though, how HORRIBLE is that first poop after childbirth? I remember it so vividly and I really wish I didn’t. For me, it was incredibly painful but not just in that one spot. It hurt my back, my stomach, my stitches etc. I would actually try to avoid it as much as possible because I felt like my body couldn’t handle the pain or pressure.
I cried because It hurt so much. I felt like my body was being ripped apart all over again, but this time there was no medication to numb the pain, not even a little (props to women who go with out epidurals). I had tears and stitches from front to back, I was bleeding a lot and all of this made me dread going to the bathroom. Cleaning myself came next, I’m an EMT so I knew the dangers of unclean stitches and bacteria. Also, so painful. Using the squirt bottle and dabbing myself was awkward and unflattering but I had to do it enough to make sure I was as clean as possible to avoid infection.
The thing is, postpartum isn’t as glamorous as some people make it seem. It’s okay to not love every part of it, it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to feel hurt. Making humans it’s hard and exhausting, but the fact that we go through as much as we do to make a raise these little ones is what makes us warriors.”