“How much is too much?
Today I broke down, filled with tears of my reality. Sometimes it’s so hard as a parent to be strong for everyone. I am here trying to keep everyone from seeing me in tears, because all I am seeing is big smiles on their faces.
This is not tears of sadness, this is tears of tiredness and not being able to cope with everything that needs to be done.
It just seems like every day all you have to do is clean, cook, entertain, change nappies, and a lot more.
I find myself folding laundry and breastfeeding at the same time which is fine because as parents or moms we have to multitask but it’s also tiring . I can’t even bring myself to do anything in the house most days.
There’s days where I don’t even get to have a shower during the day, I often have an uninterrupted shower at 1:00 a.m. then I encounter sleep deprivation and this is where all the tears comes from because I am not too sure if I’m going or coming.
I don’t think I’m doing a good job, I feel defeated, I feel lost, I don’t know what to do anymore.
I know I have to keep going, I know I have to do this for my family, but I don’t want to most days.
The moral of my reality is what you see is not always real.
Check on your happy friends, call them, facetime them, text them, find out how they are doing because on the outside everything seem so perfect but on the inside it’s far from it.
How have you been lately?”
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