“We hear so much about the firsts.
The first smile.
The first words.
The first steps.
We are ready for them.
But we talk less about the lasts.
The last newborn cry.
The last time they fall asleep on your chest.
The last time they nurse from you.
And we’re not ready for these.
We don’t see them coming until they have already passed.
We don’t capture them with a camera, because we don’t know it’s the last time.
We are ready for the firsts, but not the lasts.
And so we grieve them. But that’s okay. Because these two things I know for sure…
Grief is love, that just doesn’t know where to go. To feel grief, is to know that we have felt deep love.
And every ‘last’ opens the door for another beautiful ‘first’. ❤️
***
We’re officially at the end of our breastfeeding journey, and while I knew it was approaching, it doesn’t make it hurt any less. I didn’t force anything, it happened naturally over time. And it’s okay.
There is so much I will miss about that connection, but we are connected far beyond just that. And we have SO many more firsts to come. ☺️
**What has been your favourite ‘first’? Your hardest ‘last’?**
Instagram: @confidentiallykatie
Leave a Reply